I know this is my photography website, but who says it can't be used to blog a little more than photos? (No one. That's the right answer). But I promise to add photos on at the end. So hold tight for that.
If you're on here actually reading this, then you most likely know that I'm working this whole summer at a camp in east Texas called Pine Cove. It's my third summer and I'm on leadership over the photographers for our traveling teams. Same as the past two summers, I am learning an immense amount. I'm learning about who I am, learning about the character of God, and learning about how I relate to others and can relate to them better.
Here are my biggest take-aways so far: God is sufficient and satisfies; obeying Him and walking in where He leads brings more joy than trying to blaze my own trails; just because He puts desires on my heart does not mean they'll necessarily all be fulfilled.
The first one I feel is a no-brainer that I should already know by now. But if every lesson God has previously taught me had set in by now, I'd have no need to keep learning. Peter even says in 2 Peter 1:12-13, "So I will always remind you of these things, even though you know them and are firmly established in the truth you now have. I think it is right to refresh your memory...". I'm a human and I easily forget what God has taught me. All that to say, the Holy Spirit is continually wooing me and reminding me that He's the very best He has for me. I'm constantly looking for something else that might satisfy me better, always telling myself, "Well, sure, God is enough," but not fully owning the truth of that statement. If Jesus really is enough for me, then why should I keep looking for other things to fill me? Do I live life as one who is content in Christ? Being content in Christ does not depend on my mood swings, but true satisfaction in Him holds fast and is unshaken. Satan is a liar and deceiver though. Man, he's crafty. He uses good things to distract me from even better things. He can take a beautiful thing like the idea of marriage and use it to distract me from the bigger picture of the marriage of Christ to the church. But God is a jealous God, and he always wins me back with his fierce love.
The last one is the most important lesson I've learned. Being told it was a huge slap in the face. To preface, the first half of the summer, I was in a Bible study once a week with a group of girl staffers. Each week, when we'd get to Bible study, we were all drained - physically, spiritually, and emotionally. Sitting on that couch with soft drinks and snacks was the BEST THING EVER. I might speak just for myself in saying this, but by the time I got there, my mind was so gooey and ready to take in any sort of truth or wisdom offered up by Anna, who was leading us. Each week, she pulled out excerpts from "Lies Women Believe" by Nancy Leigh DeMoss. Shoot. I should've known from the beginning that something in my life would be a lie that I'd been harboring in my heart. Well, you might've guessed it from reading it up there, but I've been believing for so long now that because I have certain desires on my heart, they are guaranteed to be fulfilled simply because God put them there. False. God can put passions and dreams on my heart without having to fulfill them. He sometimes puts things there so that we'll run to Him with it and have our hearts filled by Him and not by worldly distractions. Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Contrary to what most people think this would translate to, I'm pretty sure God is saying is, "If you delight yourself in me, I will give you more and more of myself." You see, if we're delighting ourselves in the Lord, then all we want IS Him! Ultimately, our human hearts are empty without Him, so we're constantly seeking something to fill that void. The question is: are we trying to fill it with Jesus or trying to fill it with what the world has to offer and says that we need (which, let's face it, is poop in comparison to a life with Christ!)? Are we saying He's enough for us, yet still looking around for more? People, Christ is MORE THAN enough for us. He's overwhelmingly sufficient. (And it all comes full circle with idea of learning about Christ being sufficient). It's hit me hard this summer. And I end up feeling so small in the depth of His love for me, which is humbling.
Big things happening, and big lessons being learned. And all alongside some of the dearest friends. As promised, here are some photos!